what is fear?

Fear....one of the most controlling emotions that keeps us from experiencing fullness. Just some minutes ago, I prayed, God please open my spiritual eyes....then fear came in and whispered...but what if the devil gives you more challenge because you are growing closer to God...usually this is the pattern. then I usually waver, go back and forth: I want to grow closer to God but I am scared...the what ifs....then I let fear take up a little portion of my prayer time...which often leads to a less passionate prayer than it originally started. Not today...had a breakthrough...thanks to Reina's little swimming drama yesterday. About a couple weeks ago, she forgot she didn't have her float guard on and jumped into the water, of course she drowned. Joseph was right behind her so it was only a second that she was in the water as she was pulled out right away. But of course she was shocked, and she remembered. So yesterday when we went swimming again, feeling scared, she insisted she would only stay in the water if she could hold on to me. But Joseph took over and started encouraging her to swim on her own again. She was originally holding on to me so tight so I was pretty shocked when a few minutes later, she was swimming on her own, kicking her cute little legs. I was like...see you didn't have to be scared at all! God must be smiling and telling me the same thing . Love you Papa.

where have i been?

Wow...I haven't kept up with my blogging for so long. I really miss it. Each day is so precious with these kiddos, each day is a day worth writing, celebrating,  and to reminiscence on. Noah is already 5 and Reina is 2.8 months. Gosh...I gotta get back in to blogging! What have been keeping me from blogging for this long is about two years ago, I started a business, around the time when Reina was almost a year old. A restaurant business, also involving some catering and merchandizing. The shop is called SEASON. How it happened was all unplanned....met some people, one thing leads to the other, and here I am, running this thing. It's a lot of fun, but also A LOT of work. A lot of giving, but also a lot more reward. I have two partners, Ashley and Season. Season is the chef, the mastermind that creates most of our products. The shop is named SEASON, sort of because of him but not really(this is a topic for another day...) But as the shop is now almost 2 years old, things have calmed down a bit, learning curve not so crazy steep anymore....I better start recording my life again. Everyday is so blessed and colorful. My two little precious, the center of my life. I love you, N&R.